True Words From My Heart ♥

2011-05-22T01:12:00.000+08:00

I don wanna be stupid anymore le.......
Argh~~~~~
HOW to get out from THIS????????

2010-12-29T14:18:00.000+08:00

我不想过生日
因为我讨厌我自己
我讨厌我的出生
如果我从未出生
那我就不会伤害人

为什么人要活着？
活着好痛苦
即然每个人都有一死
为什么不让我现在就死？

为什么死要那么的痛？
为什么每一种死法都很痛？

2010-12-21T16:29:00.001+08:00

我很讨厌我自己
直到现在我才发现我真的错的很离谱
我好想死
为什么神要让我存在在这个世界上？
我是坏人
我觉得活在这个世界上好痛苦
我只会伤害人
然后也伤害我自己
我越来越神经病了
我只知道我很痛苦
我的心好痛好痛

2010-12-21T16:17:00.002+08:00

我是坏人...T.T

2010-12-17T11:37:00.001+08:00

实现不了的承诺就好像一把缝纫的刀，结束的那一刻狠狠的插入了自己的心中....承诺如果做不到，请不要轻易的许下.

2010-12-17T11:36:00.002+08:00

4 things which can never recover....
:: the stone..aft the throw
:: the words..aft it's said
:: the occasion..aft the loss
:: the time..aft it's gone

2010-12-08T21:24:00.000+08:00

我就不相信我要一辈子被你看不起...
我一定会很努力很努力改变这一切!!!!

2010-12-08T01:02:00.001+08:00

Promise is used to be break...
Sweet mouth always tell lies...
You're such a big liar!!!!!

2010-12-06T20:56:00.001+08:00

I wish I got a shoulder when I m sad...
I wish I got a shoulder to lean when I m tired...
I wish sometimes I can act as a pampered child
infront my bf so that he will care me more...
I wish I can celebrate every special season with him
such as christmas, valentine, birthday and so on.
I wish I can share all my happy & unhappy stuff with him.

I feel sour sour SOUR!!!!!
whenever I saw couple infront me...
T.T

2010-12-05T13:48:00.001+08:00

只有到了极度失望和绝望后才会放弃...

2010-12-01T21:03:00.000+08:00

我心里有一个打算
可是我很像没有勇气去做
我希望有人可以给我勇气听我倾诉..

我也不知道这个打算是对的吗
很烦很乱
我害怕又再一次做错决定
T.T

2010-12-01T20:56:00.000+08:00

看到的未必真实...
真实的你沒那麼幸運看得到...

2010-11-29T22:19:00.000+08:00

最近的我情绪真的很不稳定
心情一直在起伏不定
我迷失了
我不知道我自己要什么
我不知道我的心
我不知道我爱谁
我不知道我爱什么
很乱很乱
我甚至不知道我自己在做什么
做了这样的事
我疯了...........

2010-11-29T21:39:00.002+08:00

两天前，我做了一件很神经的事
我把我 fb 的 password 给了一个女生
因为她是我同学的前女友
她说她很想念我的同学
好想看我同学 fb updates
因为我同学把她 block 了
我很同情她
我了解她思念爱一个人的心情

但我万万没想到她会用我的 fb account
冒充我和我同学聊天
comment 我同学
send inbox 给我的同学
一直叫我的同学跟她（自己）
再从新在一起
她甚至用我 account add人
post status...

我害怕我的其他同学或同学误会我
所以刚刚向那男同学道歉
和把经过告诉了他
但他非常生气
他说只有把我 msn & fb 删了
那女生才找不到他
然后他就把我删了
我用电话信息道歉
他也不回复了

我失去了一个朋友(一个同学）
因为我太笨了？？
太好心是太笨？？
对人仁慈是对自己残忍？？？
T.T

刚刚我把我fb password 换了
过后我很伤心我崩溃哭了
因为

1.我是全世界最笨的人
2.我失去了一个朋友
3.我不想换 password 的...
我的 fb password 是他的名字...

2010-11-27T22:11:00.000+08:00

原来我真的没有我想像中的那么坚强...

2010-11-27T14:08:00.000+08:00

又回来了
它又找上我了
以前我最害怕的伤心流泪生活

你们骂的我很对
我真的错了
我不知道我自己在做些什么
我真的神经病了
我失去理智
人格分裂

为什么他这么伤我
而我还是那么的爱他
为什么我还是那么的再乎

我真的改变了...

2010-11-23T23:11:00.000+08:00

我做了很多很多违反我以往原则的事..
为什么我会变成这样呢？
我想这是不好的吧？
我再也不像一前那么单纯了....

2010-11-21T17:49:00.002+08:00

It keep crossed my mind...
I can't concentrate on my study...
I felt like I'm wrong...
Totally wrong...
Heart pain...
But what I can do now???

2010-11-21T03:53:00.000+08:00

I studying notes...
but my hand itchy...
Viewed my friend's facebook just now...
I saw a girl...
She was serious obesity during secondary time...
But she work hard diet..
Now she slim down already..
*Envious*
Means if I work hard diet,
I sure can get off "FAT" destiny
I MUST work hard diet >,<
Jia You!!!!!!!!!!!

2010-11-21T00:01:00.003+08:00

不要骗我，好吗？

2010-11-20T23:55:00.000+08:00

我好累，心很痛，伤痕累累
我好想要一个肩膀
好想有一个人听我哭诉
T.T

胡思乱想是女生的天性吗？

2010-11-20T23:49:00.000+08:00

读书读到一半
脑海中突然浮现出你和我说过的话
又令我想起他
为什么我还是很再意
而且我也会一直在想
为什么你会突然这么说？
真的只是随便说说？
还是你在暗示我什么？？
我好怕好怕
我好希望事实不是我所猜想的
可是似乎很难

压力压力

2010-11-20T20:45:00.001+08:00

下个星期一就是 Final Exam 了
压力很大
这次的 Tips 不是很明确
很像全部都很重要
压力一来时
田洁盈的自然反应就是
吃东西!!!!
掺了,
再吃下去
连猪都不要我了
T.T

2010-11-19T03:14:00.000+08:00

我了解你，多过你了解我
或许你根本没有用心去了解我...

2010-11-17T23:52:00.001+08:00

心很痛很不开心很不舒服
有想做伤害自己的事的冲动
很像觉得伤害了自己
我的心会舒服一点
我真的很痛苦很痛苦
眼泪根本不能让我发泄心里的痛
T.T

2010-11-17T23:40:00.000+08:00

今天发生了很多很多事情...
此刻的我很伤心，失望，绝望 T.T
为什么你们都是一样的？？？

2010-11-13T23:48:00.000+08:00

我很伤心
我觉得我做错了
可是一切都太晚了
没有回头的可能了

以前的我
真的很自私骄傲讨人厌
我是多么的不体谅人
从不站在别人的角度着想
我的心很痛
我很后悔很后悔
可是一切都太迟了
心很痛

2010-11-13T23:13:00.001+08:00

我渴望被爱
渴望真爱
渴望一个永不放弃的爱
我希望被重视
我希望被疼爱
我希望被关心
我很孤独
TT

2010-11-12T17:56:00.003+08:00

I would rather to become a human that without feelings....

进退两难

2010-11-12T14:18:00.001+08:00

我的极限到了
我不懂我应该怎么做
无助，伤心，失望，空虚..
我好希望有一个可以给我好意见的人 TT

2010-11-12T14:17:00.002+08:00

太在乎是因为太爱了....

2010-11-12T01:34:00.006+08:00

Evonve Then is UNHAPPY AGAIN!!!!!

2010-11-12T01:02:00.006+08:00

Today finally hand in my last assignment already..
Start from now I have to focus on my final exam
but I haven start study caused I always absent,
my notes is not completed...
Just can wait my classmate free
and send the exam tips for me..TT

I tidying my PC things just now
means I copy all this semester's assignments
and presentation slides to my hard disk...
and unintentionally saw somethings that made me sad...
Besides, I also saw somethings that made me happy...
My feeling is very complicated...
AND
My shoulders recently always pain...
pain until insomnia...TT
Too stress??
Because Final Exam???
I also don't know what is the reason it always pain...
Pain until I can't stand...TT
I should go for massage?? @@

2010-11-12T01:02:00.004+08:00

Oh ya....I pass my driving test last Thursday...
Suddenly asked me drive Viva, shocked me...
Caused my Si Fu told me exam only drive Kancil..
and I like Kancil very much because it just like a toy car...

Thanks God that I am pass :)

2010-11-10T22:06:00.000+08:00

I feel very unhappy now...
My heart is full of jealousy...
Sour SOUR SOUR!!!!
So SAD :'(

2010-11-09T17:08:00.000+08:00

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等待

2010-11-09T03:34:00.005+08:00

我想我等我期待未来却不能因此安排
向左向右向前看爱要拐几个弯才来
我等的人他在多远的未来
我排着队拿着爱的号码牌
总有一天我的谜底会解开

爱情

2010-11-09T03:34:00.004+08:00

爱情真的很复杂
或许我根本不够了解
我不够自私
我没有争取
或许我也根本没资格去争取

爱情真的很伤人
可是人们还是愿意踏出那一步去尝试
最终伤痕累累

2010-11-09T03:09:00.000+08:00

今天我才从报纸得知我妈的朋友三天前去世了
因为胃癌
她人很友善的
我每次洗脸都找她
也有和她买洗脸的产品
很好用
以后都不能跟她买了
生命真的很脆弱
我想要好好的珍惜真心对我的人♥

2010-10-26T02:31:00.008+08:00

我失眠了因为心真的很不舒服很不舒服..
我不想再放在心里了

我最讨厌承诺了

你给我的承诺你没有一个做到

如果没有办法做到就不要随便给人承诺
到底是不是男人的哦！！！！！
整天只会骗我
骗我不能上网
其实天天上网！！！
说什么不抽烟
说什么我是你最后一个喜欢的人，最后一个女朋友
你不想要再认识其她女生所以不要加人
结果开另一个账号加人
如果你做不到就不要乱给承诺
我当时没逼你的
是你自己给我的承诺
还说一定会挽回我就算我要跟你分
什么绝对不会和女生提分手
结果提分手的却是你!!!!!
如果你是玩玩就不要叫我放
in a relationship with 某某
你是不是要把我逼疯
让我无法面对人？？
我不像你
喜欢喜欢就一个账号
里面也没你的朋友的
你要分要交往没人理没人干涉
整天只会扮好人
扮长情
我最讨厌这种人了！！！！！！！

我承认我也有错，
我管你太严
可是你可以说出你的感受的啊
而不是在背后做整堆小动作
我说过我会改了
可是你根本不给我机会了
我已经很努力的挽回了
我可以做的都做了
是你根本想跟我分
才故意和我吵的吧
现在回想起来我真的很傻
你这样对我
我还一直很相信你
我还拼命挽回
甚至想死
我还没买药时，
上网查看到有一个女生吃13粒panadol死
看到一半chris来载我了
所以我买了24粒
心想一定会死
但要吞那天想再查多点
才发现有人吃30粒不死
有人吃100粒不死
每个人体质不同
所以很难说
panadol
会溶解人的器官
对肝不好
有人吃不死变半死
就应该是躺在病床上一辈子不能动了
要人服事
我当时很怕我变半死才没吞的
我想我死了
你会更开心吧
我真的是笨到可以
你根本没爱过我
你最爱的是你自己和你的女朋友罢了
你真的很自私
我的初恋尽然是被人耍被人玩
想玩具一样玩
我真的很想把你的照片放上'贱男网站'
让全世界知道你的所做所为
我把我的账号删了是因为我再也不想看到虚伪的一切
现在回想起你说过的东西真的很气很热
说什么最讨厌女生回答你“不知道”
结果你就一直回答我不知道
当你要和我在一起时就叫我珍惜现在
然后一直给我希望
说你女朋友会和你分等等
当你要和我分就叫我看未来
还说如果你的女朋友永远不和你分怎样
就永远都不分
其实你早就知道不会分了吧？？？
当初想玩我才骗我
玩好我就用这个借口一脚把我踢走
你根本就没爱过我！！！
你问我两年之后怎样
我说你去那里
我就去那里作工生活
那是因为当时我笨很爱你所以那样说
可是你根本就没意和我走到生命的尽头
你当时尽然说我根本是在威胁你
女朋友去找男朋友去靠近他的地方生活没有同居
（原来这叫做威胁？？？？？）
我刹那间真的觉得我很傻很傻
我付出了真心
我全心全意的去爱你
原来我只是你的一个玩具
当你要把我踢走时，
你真的很狠心很狠心
我敬佩你
如果我也像你一样狠心
那我现在就不会受伤了！！！
还有你一直叫我不要再问为什么
然后你自己就可以一直问我为什么
你永远是对的！！！！
错的永远是我，可以不可以哦？？？
你还敢说你也很好奇为什么我们会变成现在这样
这应该问你
不是问我
如果你真的爱我
你就不会这样对我了
根本是你有意和我分
说到自己几长情
都是骗人的
我永远无法忘记
当我要死了
你的那句
->把照片删了，不要让我恨你，不然我连朋友都不要和你做
你说什么一天是你的女朋友一辈子都是你的女朋友？？？
朋友都不要和我做了
还是什么女朋友哦？？

什么永远的爱我哦？？？？

原来你的永远的爱是这样的！！！！

是三个月的玩具
我真的笨到可以

我这一辈子都不可能原谅你

发泄完毕

2010-10-23T11:55:00.000+08:00

为什么原来我仅有的原来也是假的？？？
假假真真
我真的分不清楚..
也不知道..
我真的好想死...
为什么要这样对我...
为什么全部都是假的？？？

2010-10-23T11:41:00.002+08:00

我做了一件我没有办法原谅我自己的事....

2010-10-23T11:37:00.000+08:00

我是大笨蛋！！！！！
我是大笨蛋！！！！！
我是大笨蛋！！！！！
我很讨厌我自己！！！！！
我觉得我很肮脏 TT
我好想去死.....
我再也回不到从前了...........

2010-10-08T23:00:00.002+08:00

心真的很痛，从来没有那么痛过
我突然觉得我才是最错的人
我真的应该放弃自己
心好痛好痛
每天都躲在角落哭
哭了一点都不会觉得比较好
只是越哭越伤心
可是我又控制不了自己不哭
它就自己一直掉下来
然后心很痛很痛
我到底需要多久才不用再过这样的生活？
到底要多久才能重新站起来
为什么无论我做什么
心还是那么痛
每晚都偷偷哭泣睡不着
我到底要怎么做才会康复？？
TT

2010-08-26T14:52:00.002+08:00

Today I saw my friend's facebook status ->
Girl: 在爱情世界里,没有真正的爱,只有背叛与伤害,如果是真的有真爱,就不会有人为了爱,伤心流泪了,因为在世界上,太多人背叛承诺,所以被爱伤过,才知道爱的真正样貌...

Boy: 说什么承诺…一切都是骗人的！说过的诺言！都是最大的谎

言！说什么永远爱我！fxxx！到最后！还是离开我！那么深爱一个人，到最后最伤的就是你！

I feel so sad when I saw this because I always break my promises. TT

Start from this second, I will try my best to keep the promises that I gave you ♥

敏感

2010-08-19T13:07:00.006+08:00

最近我发现到自己倾向这几种状态-
1. 经常胡思乱想
2. 经常怀疑人
3. 经常冤枉人

而且我很爱斗气..

不轻易认输...

再这样下去应该没有人受得了我吧...TT

为什么我会这样???

对自己没有信心

不轻易相信人

很怕受伤

讨厌人对我冷淡

我想是这样吧..

2010-08-01T19:19:00.000+08:00

If you love someone, you'll want to do stuff for them and make them happy, because when they're happy, you're happy..

2010-01-10T21:53:00.005+08:00

My hand made card for new Youth members...

This time also only 4 kittens doing cards...
Honestly after that day "3 person do 90 so tiny's Christmas cards"...
Do until 3am then heavy rain again...
We all get wet..:S
and next day I have to go Niah jungle tracking again...
I feel like so tired and so scared of CARDS ><
Hope teacher wont ask us do CARDS again =.=''
No committee willing to help us then say us lazy at the back again...=.=
The material can't claim money again...@@''
*ANGRY*

P/S : My blog is a place for me to give vent my feeling ><

My 19th Birthday + New Year Eve ♥

2010-01-10T21:51:00.000+08:00

Having buffet steamboat at Michael with Hui Hui & Chris..

Due to some issues, Vivi & Prisc help me celebrated during 31.01.09 then continue count down^^

Having our lunch at KFC..
Vivi is camera shy~

My Birthday Cake~
Candle stands for 10 years old
cakes stand for 9 years old
= 19th

Headed to Ah Lung Saloon set hair after that..

BEFORE

AFTER

Any comments? hehe

We planned to having our dinner at Marina Seahorse Bistro although they organized buffet night and no food to serve us so we changed to Soho Bistro...

Prisc & me

Me & Vivi

Kiss Kiss ♥

Tai Yieng & me

Chris & me

Hui Hui & me

Vivi bought us hair bands...
So next time is I bought for you gals le..hehe

Soho also organized buffet night, It was too noisy so we headed to Parkson count down..

Last, having supper at A1..
Reached home around 2am+

31.10.09

Christmas 09^^

2010-01-01T23:28:00.035+08:00

Ying Ying, Chris and me done 90 Christmas cards in one day for all Youth members...
6pm start doing until 3am+ at Ying Ying's house...:S

All drama members^^

Choir~

Christmas group photos^^

m3 & Kalysha

me & Jennifer

Me & Emily

Me & Amny

25.12.09

Happy Birthday to my elder sister, Tracy!

2010-01-01T04:56:00.003+08:00

Birthday Party at Blue Coast...

Around 20+ people...
Unexpected, so take turns to sit xD

Notice the different?? lolz

Ying & me^^

21.12.09

2009-12-16T21:17:00.025+08:00

Went to Niah Cave again caused Chris wants to go.
Hui Hui and Sim Zhe joined us too =)

So many insects today, maybe caused heavy rain last night..

Don't know what is this but last time Vanessa them ate this...=X

Chris & me

Nice view, nice hill =)

The only short cut at Niah Cave...
It is a small hole

Still remember last time khaliq using this small hole (short cut) because want to skip these two stairs...hehe

Chris on the boat...

Sim Zhe never try the prawn mee at Niah..
So we bring him go try prawn mee ^^

Chris,
Thanks for became our driver^^

Sim Zhe,
You're a very attentive person and very gentlemen =)
Thanks for help us drove the car back to Miri.
Thanks for always giving me solutions.
Coincidently you fear of spider too..
Helped me notice where got spider...LOLZ
Don't emo again la...
Don't worry, be happy =) hehe

This time wasn't tired as last time, maybe caused last time I'm on diet. I didn't have energy so I feel like wanna die inside. Compared with jungle tracking, this is much easier...xD

15.12.09

Happy Birthday to Steven Phoon!

2009-12-13T07:21:00.000+08:00

Due to some issues we changed to Sushi King having our dinner.
Tonight really so fun because we have -> Adeline...hehe
She is so cute^^
She has many ideas to "fool" the birthday boy.
Non-stop laughing when seeing this video.
viewed more than 10 times already xD

Phoon, me, Chris, Ying Ying, Adeline & Carine

Chew, Phoon & Lee
Thank you very much $'.'$
Next time must treat you guys back...

08.12.09

2009-12-13T07:20:00.001+08:00

Just arrived Amway CA centre not more than 15 minutes,
Sing Tiew called me go lim teh..
Caused tomorrow he will flight to Kuching again.

$'.'$

Hope Chris Leong no angry me...

Lee Kok Wei busy with his gang.
No join us.

So,
only me and WST at KFC.
WST stealthily go eat KFC.
His parents not allowed.

Don't try to seduce me!!!
No supper for now...:(

Night view from science museum

Fist time went to science museum at night...
So many couples here....
But me and WST not la...
Haha...he is finding gay mate now..xD
I really don't know science museum is a "black area" at night...=X

07.12.09

2009-12-13T07:19:00.002+08:00

First time been to Niah Cave with Khaliq, Vanessa, Jennifer and 3 MAS pilots.

Due to some issues we postponed our journey to 10am + get lost so 12pm we just arrived Niah Cave.

Boat

Niah Cave's millipede is much bigger than Miri's...
Tons of millipedes among our journey...

Niah Cave's tree also bigger than Miri's...LOLZ

Canteen

hehe...Postcard xD

Our objective...(Destination) hurray~

Khaliq,
Thanks for became our driver.
Thanks for walked with me.
Thanks for help me took my bag.
Thanks for always noticed what we need and take care of us.

You're a very attentive person =)

Having my dinner at Yi Rou's house with Shun Guang & En Jie =)
Chicken flavour magie mee

Yi Rou's magie mee is famous one so we don't want "big meat big fish" just want MAGIE MEE...hehe

The chef^^

I really drop 1kg even after having my dinner like Khaliq said, so happy...lalala

06.12.09

2009-12-13T07:16:00.001+08:00

I didn't go Youth Cell Group last night, feel so guilty.
Caused being cheated by Wong Sing Tiew......
He asked me to go SIB events - Who Am I.
At first, I rejected.
WST : You all so bad, all left me. 1 year accompany me one time also can't? & bla bla bla...

I thought he must bring at least a new friend to go his church...
So end up, I'm going....

When I arrived just knew that actually Livan is his cousin and Livan invited he to go this events and he was first time come to SIB airport road church.....

WST is a christian but he didn't hav a church, he one week go one church...LOLZ

So me and WST are new friends...
And that is a christmas events...
We didn't prepare a present to exchange...:$

I'm really =.=|||

Christmas ornament♥

In front stage.
I sat at the left side of stage, the place of my seat can't capture the stage :S

All people come to the front of stage(here) to dancing and singing during worship season. This was my first time, quite nice =)

After stage

This church not very big but they very warm^^

My Christmas present -> Mini fan ^^

WST,
Thanks for became my driver...haha xD
and accompany me met a very best friend =)

My friend follow WST's car at the back..
Between WST keep break the red lights so my friend followed too...
Then WST still dare to said people keep break red lights again =.=''

06.12.09

2009-12-03T21:30:00.005+08:00

Emy suddenly asked me go Marry Brown....
Marry Brown again....LOLZ
Caused Emy haven try Marry Brown and she wants to try =)

Marry Brown (Morsjaya)

E&E (Emy + Evonve) wakaka

Emy is my colleague last time at Merbau Furniture...
She told me that Merbau Furniture is vacancy now, They need a temporary Full Time worker from December to February. Dilemma, I working or enjoy my holidays?? I also don't know they want me or not....LOLZ

Hope can hear from Merbau Furniture's supervisor soon...xD

2009-11-30T06:41:00.004+08:00

An early Birthday celebration for me (earlier around one month)....
I'm really very surprise, so touching too...

Nath,
We're Best Friend Forever like you said =)
Thanks for always help me in assignments, presentations & many....
You never forget what you've promised although I was forget...$'.'$
THANK YOU VERY MUCH!!!

28.11.09

2009-11-30T06:40:00.004+08:00

Watched 3 movies recently...
All movies I watched with Chris...hahaha

First, 2012

We watched 0015 but still so many people, FULL.
One gang of chinese males sat beside me although they super funny made us laughed a lot.

The most impression one >>
Part of the movie - When they discuss to let the poor people enter the boat...

That chinese man who sat beside me suddenly shout: "Why Badawi not in?? American president, China president all got....." =.=

At the moment I really non-stop laughing....Hope you get what I mean caused it really very funny if u watch 2012.

2012 is definitely a two thumbs up movie.
It is the nicer movie among all.
I would rate 4/5 for it=)
14.11.09

Second, Ninja

This movie I felt very scary caused too bloody. They didn't treat people as a human.
28.11.09

Last, Jennifer's Body

I felt very scary too, It is about a girl possessed by demon. The story not bad but the ending not nice.
29.11.09

Chris & me^^

Happy Holidays^^

2009-11-30T06:38:00.002+08:00

Time flies, a long semester past again. Time to blogging♥

12.10.09
An outing with batch 6 & 7 classmates...

Sarah & Khaliq

Sarah & Bob

Sarah & me

Me & Khaliq

Bob & me

Bob, Me, Sarah

This is our family photo =)
Khaliq always like to act cool..@@

Three of us always go school together everyday....
Mr Khaliq is our driver, It's free of charge...
Caused Khaliq don't want us pay him so we treat him pizza =)
THANK YOU!!! So happy can know you guys.
I ♥ the moment we come late together, We learn together inside car before exam started, we laugh together, we play together, we drive together....

Thanks for always help me check my assignments and presentations..
Thanks for asking me question during my presentation and your attention...
Thanks for giving me exam tips...
After graduate, gonna miss you guys load♥

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Inside class :bb

Vanessa & me

Aishah & me

Me & Livan

Amway members in Fajar International College....LOLZ

Happy Birthday to Oscar!

2009-11-30T06:37:00.002+08:00

Having steamboat at Passion Corner...

Sit for a long time, Randy & Brendan's legs numbness....xD

Chris not in because she is photographer...

Happy Birthday 19th to Oscar!!!

hehe...use his mouth to take off 19 candles...xD

Gals

Me & Chris

All The Best!

09.11.09

Presentation Day...

2009-11-23T21:28:00.004+08:00

Me, Douglous & Chris

Me & Chris

m3^^

The Night Of Glittering Stars : Fajar Annual Dinner♥

2009-11-16T22:44:00.000+08:00

Theme : Masquerade Party
Venue : Dynasty Hotel
Date : 24 October 2009 (saturday)
Time : 6:00-10:30pm

At first, I decided not going.
But my friends keep on invite, so touching.
Eventually I decided to go this annual dinner on friday.

Because It's last minute, Verytaipei Studio was FULL so Chris and me changed our mind and go Wendy Saloon make up + set hair.

I'm very not satisfied with my hair and make up....:(

Just arrived Dynasty Hotel...

A group photo with Rachel (staff) and Chris Leong

This picture so ugly. The hair set by Wendy Saloon.....:S

Me,Chris, Adeline & Ying Ying

The only 4 chinese girls in batch 6 & 7

Rachel & me

Nath with mask

Nath without mask :b

Black & White =D
Chris & me (mystery)

Toilet snapshot...
Chris, me & Janice

Take 1

Take 2

I guess this is the last one,with my super duper ugly hair....:(

I take off all the hair clips,try to set it myself....:S

After take off the hair clips...

But I still not satisfied...

Chris

Us again, took by Chris hp...

Us AGAIN, took by my hp...*Wuliao*

Toilet snapshot 2..
Adeline & me

Chris & me

YingYing & me^^

Back to the venue...
Vanessa & me

Me, Chris & Douglous

Safety students..

Girls from batch 6 & 7

Girls

Girls with Silver Shock (Brendan)

Brendan, me & Livan

Oscar, Me, Livan, Ervinna & Chris

Livan & me with mask =D

Livan

Janice

Ervinna

Lim teh at 99 Cafe after dinner...

Reached home...

I looked so mature here...:S
I think the make up + hair not suit me...
Any comment?

I prefer this look...
Took it 27.09.09 (presentation day)

Give me some comment please =)

EMO

2009-10-20T23:19:00.006+08:00

People around me seemed like all in emo included me recently. I realized that not only me one person will face problems, will face sadnesses, so do everyone. I hate myself for being so stupid, childish, a troublemaker of friends.

Sorry, I always have to bother you.
I'm type IV person (study too much Occupational Stress) who are characterized by marked dependency. These people often exhibit the characteristic if helplessness, constantly seeking advice from others, and unable to initiate any action on their own. I'm naivete, I ought to change :(

I Hate myself >.<

PS: Don't judge me, If you don't know me!

SAD

2009-10-20T23:18:00.001+08:00

I'm so tired, tired of all the things, tired of myself. Disappointed of myself. I feel so guilty, I'm wrong, I'm bad, sorry everyone. I will disappear for few days, a refreshment of me,myself and God. No disturb, seriously >.<

Bakun Mission Trip

2009-10-20T22:11:00.003+08:00

A very late posting caused I just get the photos today. But I'm really enjoyable and learnt tons of things through the mission trip. A refreshment of me and God♥

The day before our mission trip (our last meeting)...^^
First time meet with the KL team which is Mei Xin, Li San, Joseph, Tee Kwong & Samuel.

Time to introduce ourselve...

Practising drama...
Title: Aku pun tidak percaya
Synopsis: Human not believe in God, live in degenerate. Eventually, Satan bring them go to hell....

Gamble

Smoker

Jun Cheng looks funny here...:X

Drinking + smoking

Dancing

Songs performance

KL team stay in English church the night before our mission trip.

So envious...
♥ music..
Li San looks so cool here^^

First day of mission trip, having our breakfast at 2020 Cafe

Before start our journey, take a group photo first :D

Praying

Cute church buddies^^
Marlene

Ceaser

Sweet couple^^
Emily & Darren

KL team

I follow Uncle Yeo's Hilux

I'm bad girl, I always do this. Please don't learn from me =X
I guess those who read my blog will reject same car with me next time >.
Marlene

We take a break at Batu Niah...
Wow~ There also got Lu Zhou....lolz

The road is bad, better than Long Sukan Mission Trip though.
Tons of Shing Yang lorries passed by.

Totally no line >.<

The journey takes around 5 hours. We having our lunch at a coffee shop opposite SMK Bakun.

My lunch ->> Honey chicken rice

Our hostel

1st meeting at Bakun

After meeting, we clean the hostel because it was too dirty seems like abandoned long time.

Room

Before go to SMK Bakun.

We taken photos by Yee Boon unknowingly...:S
Tee Kwong, top model pose~

Sim Zhe

I look so emo here...

SMK Bakun

♥ bridge

Dinner

Linda addicted on their fried chicken (KFC) :D

Ice breaking

Testimony : Darren

Testimony : Sim Zhe

Sermon: 10 Commandments - Pastor Lau

Second day
All busy take photos

Busy take
.
.
.
Don't you think that it looks like a skeleton? (Many lines)

View from school

Workshop : Life game
First, Student need to sit for the exams.

Those who get higher marks for their exam can get a certificate and go for the interview.
Cleaner & laborer NO CERTIFICATE NEEDED but low salary indeed...

Aunty Joleen & me are banker^^

I cut it short and simple from now cause the posting were too long, some error, keep upload failed...:(

These two student are Angelina and Angelina. Same name!
I taught them Maths and Bible. It is unbelievable, I'm teaching a secondary student=X

Testimony : me

It is much better compare with my first time sharing at Tatau mission trip, I hope my sharing is really useful for them :)

Mei Xin & me

Aunty Joleen & me

Cikgu Serene & me

Yee Boon & me

Last day, sunday service..

Songs performance - How great is our God & I walk by faith
♥ How great is our God, If you never hear this song must give a try :]

Another drama: Heart

Song performance by student SMK Bakun

EE programme

Angelina

Angelina

This girl so cute, many cute pose when take photos^^
Her friends like to fooling her when we take photo so our facial expression a bit funny D:

♥ this picture

Mei Xin & me

Li San & me

Linda & me

Marlene & me

♥ piano

Our souvenir (hand made by them, so touching♥)

Group photo

Time flies, end of mission trip...

Get used to it, I'm bad girl..^.*
But don't follow me please~

I follow Uncle Micheal's car get home. 3 cars follow at the back....

Linda, your story is so touching.
Linda joined 3 mission trip this year. She is very active on mission ministry caused her grandma passed away the end of last year. Her grandma is a non-believer, this was a big hit to Linda, until now she is still in depression.
Guys, if u got anythings want to do just go ahead, time will never wait for you!!!!

Before we come back Miri.
A student says : Sister, next year you must come Bakun again, Promise! Don't cheat me! This is our appointment!

In fact, I don't think I did teach them many things caused just 2 days. But I was so touched from their gesture. May God bless you all richly♥

I'm glad that can meet you guys through this mission trip...
You guys are so warm, noticed what people need and help each others...
so touching♥

27.09.09

Mid-Autumn Festival

2009-10-03T23:38:00.015+08:00

Decorated by Fang Wen & me =)

We divided all the youth into 4 groups which is blue,red,green and orange.
Blue group...

Mooncake & snack

Person in charge of the day

Play games while eating...^^

This is how I celebrated the Mid-Autumn Festival...
Eventually, Wish everyone Happy Mid-Autumn Festival♥

2009-09-24T01:53:00.018+08:00

Raya visiting to Cikgu Razali's house
(the most sexy teacher in st. Joe)

Because his voice very sexy and he likes to say "sexy" this word..

When I was in secondary school, he gave me a nick name->> Rambut cantik...lolx

Headed to Marina Bay again caused Mazlinda wants to take pictures at there..

Glen & me=)
Always like to act cool xD

Sing Tiew & me=)

Sing Tiew & Glen, Thanks for being our driver for these few days...

I'm so happy can met our long lost friends and secondary teacher, enjoyed a lot=)

Went to Good taste Bah Kut Teh with my family at night♥...

My sister

22.09.09

Selamat Hari Raya!!

2009-09-24T01:46:00.005+08:00

Went to raya visiting with Sing Tiew, Goh Yu Chen, Fabian, Glen and Venn. I'm the only girl because many people last minute fly us plane :(

First, we went to Iskandar's house.

Iskandar join our raya visiting :)
Next, Ryn's house..

Ryn & me♥

Sing Tiew addicted on Big Apple Donuts so he brought us go Parkson while pass time caused our next raya visiting is 5pm.

Although they all don't like Big Apple Donuts, It is too sweet for them....
No Big Apple end up...:(
Just walk around and headed to Tanjung Lopang after that....

SHOW TIME~
Rules: Everyone at least 3 snapshot, the pose can't repeat!!

Fabian (gay pose) :bb
1

2

3

Iskandar
1 (with spec)

2 (without spec)

3 (without spec)

Goh Yu Chen (cool pose)
1

Issh~ Fabian kacau kacau..no counted...
one more!
1

2

3

me :$
1

2

3

Glen main kotor!!!
He deleted the photos...only left one ->>

I'm wondering why guys like to pose like this?
Top model pose? Sexy? :bb

I'm so sorry, Sing Tiew.
We forgot to help you take the 3 snapshop although this game is you started :(

This was my 1st time come to Marina Bay....:$

When I saw these two pictures really non- stop laughing...xD

Because:

The end of the day, when Sing Tiew viewing the photos we taken...

Sing Tiew: You took what o? So small, you know so hot there ma? I posed so hard just now...You took like this @@..no zoom at all...angry..

me: I don't know how to use your camera la...you said take from there o...I just follow your instruction..xD

This one will be better :b

Behold, this pose again (put his hand on his naked stomach)...

Again...

And again...

Glen so angry because Goh spoiled his picture..xD

Went to Yazid and Khaliq's house after that...

At Khaliq's house

Khaliq and me

Last, Mazlinda's house..

Mazlinda & me♥

Fabian and me

Glen and me

Goh Yu Chen show his musle..lolz

Iskandar with spec

Iskandar without spec

Audrey join us lim teh at Ming's cafe before go home..

Audrey, thanks for treat us drinks~♥
Carrot milk

Audrey & me♥

21.09.09

2009-09-19T23:56:00.017+08:00

An outing with Sing Tiew, Cherry and Robest. I had been two years no meet Sing Tiew already caused someone no heart no find me lo..xD

Sing Tiew asked the worker to cut the donut into 4 pieces...

Whose get the pink colour spoon ought to finish the left-overs...xD

As usual, Sing Tiew always is the lucky one :bb

Me, Sing Tiew & Robest

Cherry, Sing Tiew & Robest

Me, Robest and Cherry

me=)

Cherry & me♥

Cherry didn't go Tanjung Lopang with us caused she follow her boyfriend's car get home.

Farewell Guan Yi

2009-09-19T23:55:00.018+08:00

Guan Yi will going to Germany continue his further studies on 18th September.
May God bless you richly^^

We went to Soho again caused majority want to go there.
Kalysha, Fang Wen & Fung Fung

Hui Zhu & Hui Ling

My drink, the taste okay only...forgot the name..

Snapshot timing~

Guan Yi and me

Guan Yi & Hui Zhu

Guan Yi and Hui Ling

Guan Yi & Kalysha

Guan Yi and Fang Wen

Fung Fung & Guan Yi^^

Fang Wen, Kalysha & Hui Ling

★Fung Fung★

♥Farewell present♥

17.09.09

Youth Camp 09

2009-09-01T04:08:00.006+08:00

My church organized a Youth Camp on 30-31/8 at imperial suite.

Bring our luggage to apartment ^^

Just arrived...

They preparing their stuff while waiting those late corners..

Ice breaking + sermon

Pastor

High tea at Imperial Restaurant..

Tea

Yum yum~

camera shy?!!

Alcohols

Wan Ping and me♥

Fung Fung & me♥

Hui Zhu and me♥

Me, Zhu & Ying♥

Hui Zhu & me at Mummy's dishes having out dinner :b

Sweet couple ^^

Ying Ying

Ying & Zhu

Movie time ->> Horton hears a who!
It's definitely a two thumbs up movie♥♥

Group discussion for the movie..

Ah Wen so fast wear sleeping clothes already xD

Group photo with her sleeping clothes :b

Headed to Soho after that..

yummy :b

Ying came late because she went to her friend's birthday celebration..
Shi Peng, thanks for treat us supper =)

Before sleep..:b

2nd day~
breakfast

Enjoying our meal♥

View from our apartment..

Workship God

Sermon

Praying..

See what they doing during Free Time->>

They start munching snacks...

Cutie Wen ^^

having nap..

zZZZZZ

Kalysha & Wen

Last, having our lunch at Sushi King before go home...

Green tea

6 person Total: RM114.85

This is the fruit ice-cream shop which opposite Big Apple Donuts..
Zhu with green tea flavor ice-cream..

2009-08-09T20:01:00.000+08:00

Thursday night, I totally no energy laid on my bed. My dad saw it, he pulled me up and forced me go having dinner so I start eating already. I think I too over already...x.x

2009-08-05T22:25:00.003+08:00

I've been one week no eat rice. I drop around 6kg, It's really hard work. I don't know I can continue or not. Now I feel like wan to eat Pizza Hut, KFC, Big Apple Donuts, Sushi king, Waffle, Cendol, Prawn Kuih, Tea Box cheese cake & sandwich, pearl milk tea......$'.'$ This is a person who one week no eating's thought...I can eat in my dream only...=X Fast fast go sleep, Don't think too much xD
Good Nite!

2009-07-28T22:31:00.010+08:00

We celebrated Vivi's birthday last friday but her birthday is monday.
Went Parkson shopping again...

Whose leg is that?

Ans: Priscilla's sexy leg :b
Went to Big Apple donuts again...$'.'$

All busy taking photos...
I busy taking their photos...xD

Start our meal lu..^^

Coincidently Vivi get her horoscope - Leo ^^

And Priscilla get her horoscope - scorpio too..♥

Presents from me, Priscilla & Yee Phang which is photo frame, bear bear, card, red eggs and a necklace wearing by Vivi=)

Done by me :D

Headed to Explanet beach after that

Where Priscilla looking for? xD

Birthday girl♥

Noticed a person there..
What he is doing?
Swimming?? @@

♥Love our shadows♥

♥Love bubbles♥

HoHoHo~ Who wrote this??

Gonna to miss you guys loads~♥

Evonve, Vivi, Ah Bee (Prisc);
Hiak Hiak Hiak ;
24/7/09

My footprint...:$

Nice pose?? xD

Sunset..^^

Whose hand??

Ans: Prisc

Having our dinner at Senda Shabu Shabu..

Lamb

Seafood

Chicken

Wuhu~ Please,Don't rob me...

Ahh~ Don't burn my mouth :'(

Happy Birthday to Genevieve Sia Wei Ying♥

Yee Phang come and help her...

You want bring your plate go where?
Don't worry! We wont snatch it..xD

Dessert

Our souvenir,
White = me
Black = Vivi
Pink = Prisc

Friendship forever♥

Vivi,
Thanks for treat us dinner, donuts & became our driver these few days. This holidays I'm really very happy because of you guys.
We did a lot silly things but it is really fun xD
May God bless you richly!!
All the best^^
Miss you guys tons~♥
24.07.09

2009-07-27T17:14:00.011+08:00

Heard Priscilla said before pick me they saw helicopter, aeroplane and now is SPORT CAR...lolz

My favourite cold drinks at Bintang

Don't misunderstand!
This is not lesbian photo...xD

Headed to Parkson after that..
Noticed a interest signboard->>

The camera is put in conversely..^^

The glasses are so big...

Cute?

You're really cool~

L O V E

Black: Would you marry me?
Pink: Only one flower? NO!!!

Black: Would u marry me?
Pink: Yes, I do.

World war...

These two teenagers are killing the babies..
Hell bloody =X

Why babies so smelly?
Because you guys bully him...
Don't look down babies...xD

Priscilla♥

Addicted on kid's game...$'.'$

High School Musical toys come out, not bad!

♥Parkson Neoprints♥

Priscilla is tidying the photos...

You can't take my photos...blerk xD

After sent Priscilla home, we planned to go Explanet beach but we get lost...
This is a place before Explanet but after Tanjung Lopang....

Do you curious why Yee Phang keep taking photos?

Ans ->>

Can see the crabs?

23.07.09

2009-07-23T23:57:00.052+08:00

Hang out with Vivi and Priscilla last tuesday because we all are on holidays^^

Before going out =)

Having our brunch at KKKKKKFC :b

Priscilla is fill in her passport form

Vivi is taking my picture and I'm taking her picture....

Whereas Priscilla is taking our picture....hahaha

Accompany Priscilla went to renew her passport...
Eventually I know how tall I am ->>167cm

Headed to Starbucks after that

Informal photos

Vivi is a good actor :b

Am I smelly?

You want hit me...?

Scary?!!

She wants feed me?

tired?

Ghost?

Act cool?

Bengy Bengy Beng Beng~

Star

My favourite waffle :D

Blueberry flavor

We went to Boulevard planned to take Neoprints although the shop no open :(
Priscilla is a cute tiger...xD

Where am I?

At Lea Shoes Centre

Having dinner at 99 Cafe
Vivi, after tie her hair...

Cute Priscilla^^

Went to Parkson again...
Bear bear and me at Toysworld

Our special group photo->>
This panda is Vivi, Priscilla and me :D

Last, go watch Ice Age 3..
Why Vivi shout??
The animal is too big & scary?!!

21.07.09

2009-07-17T23:13:00.017+08:00

Went to Pizza Hut with Vivi and Priscilla.

First time ate mushroom soup with cheese powder, learned from Priscilla (:

Act as Camera shy $'.'$

Vivi♥

Priscilla♥

We ordered 4 persons package and we couldn't finish it..=x
Left-overs

We laughed whole day (._.'')
We learned a new laugh way ->> hiak hiak hiak ☺
I'm happy today, indeed. Thanks♥

Eventually Examinations are OVER!!

2009-07-11T13:50:00.004+08:00

Wednesday went to Parkson with Nath.
We walk around Parkson..
Then,went to Big Apple Donuts again, when I wanna pay just realized that my money left at home...
How terrible I am, I swear wont repeat same mistake again...=X
Next time I must treat you back...so embarrassed..x.x

2009-06-27T09:12:00.021+08:00

An outing with Vivi, Jennifer, Amy and some Riam Tech's friends.

First, we went to play bowling...

Jennifer

Donuts again caused Amy wants to try.....
and I'm addicted xD

Jennifer

Vivi

David

Derick & David

Donuts

Jennifer & me

My eye is red, something wrong?!!
But now is alright..

Jennifer's fruit ice cream

Jennifer's favourite food --> cheese cheese wedges

Vivi and me at KFC

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Went to watched Transformer 2 with a friend yesterday.

laughed a lot, so funny...Definitely a nice movie, two thumbs up (:

Big Apple after that...

I wish to eat donuts long time, finally realize ☺

We cut the donuts into two and sharing so we can try different flavours ☻
The process start...

We couldn't find any big spoon here so it is a bit hard to do the process...
Luckily got someone professional...xD

Dancing Queen ♥

Donuts are very delicious but too sweet...Thanks for treat me movie and tea :D

Thanks for waiting bus with me..
Today I enjoyed a lot, thank you very much!!

17.04.09 Miri Gospel Chapel

2009-06-24T14:57:00.007+08:00

Riam branch's Choir
Can you spot me?!
(2nd row) blerk :D